Now I'm finally taking the time to grieve for Tara...there was no time last week.  I pick up her ashes tomorrow morning, when I run a big list of errands I'd been putting off for two days.

I'm suffering insomnia pretty badly, as she's been purring on my chest, lulling me to sleep for nearly 5 years - and suddenly stopped.

If I can ever find another kitten or cat like her, then I'd be truly blessed again.  Both she and Stormy slept with me every night - they reminded me strongly of each other.

I will say, this is the first time that out of all the times a pet or human passed, this is the first time that I didn't feel them leave me all the way.  I can't quite explain it, so I won't try.

Chase your butterflies in the sky for me, sweet Tara, my little angel, my little soulmate.  A piece of my heart will always be yours, baby girl, whenever you purr away.

- Julie

Am sorry about Tara, well my Goldie is there with her.

Everywhere I turn in the house, I can see Goldie........, it is so painfull, I suppose you feel the same way,

Take care of yourself.

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Thank you so much...I cried for two days, and now feel like doing things again today.

As for miracles - I've seen miracles happen with other pets...my friend who's dog passed away from lymphatic cancer, I think, last year.  You know those dogs on the Caesar dog food cans, the little white ones, Westies?  They are rare in South Carolina...he was one of those.

Her friend, who'd purchased her with her, came by with a stray one - asking if she wanted it.  Initially, she said no.  After I pointed out the odds of another Westie showing up out of nowhere, that it was her dog sending her another one.  She decided to try and care for Jake, but he's young, so she didn't feel she deserve him.  The microchip told the story, where he came from, I think about 18 months.  He had a skin condition, normal for Westies, so my friend got him fixed right up.

Today, he's used to her Chronic Pain Schedule, and will walk, play, and do things around it.  He will run upstairs to the bedroom, for their afternoon nap.

Do I believe in miracles, with pets?  I sure do - Jake was sent by her other dog, to fill, not replace, the hole left in her heart.  Cheyenne was one of a kind...but I have noticed that when a breed pulls you in, you are theirs, forever.

Just like I am, with Persians.  I just want that precious flat face, bug eyes, and temperament.  The points don't have to be perfect, such as long body, or perfect color...I just need another one, who will sleep with me, and sit on my lap when I'm on the computer, or watching tv.

Purrvette's been trying to tolerate laps a bit more, so I will try a pillow tonight, see if the extra padding makes her comfy, and act as a heat barrier.  I just miss how they worked together, my little three "Mouseketeers."

The owner of the house keeps saying I shouldn't get another cat  - but, I can wait...for the right one.  Usually a cat chooses me, like Tara did.  

If I had a wish, it would be to raise a persian from a kitten...why I'd tried so hard to be a breeder, in the late '80s and early '90s, but nothing ever went right.

Purrs & Huggs,

Julie

I picked up Tara's ashes this afternoon...I was crying again, just made me so sad.  But after I opened the pretty cedar box, I knew she was definitely gone, and she wasn't in the box...just a small handful of sand looking particles, left of her body, that for awhile, was her home.

I don't feel like talking in person much, I'm being broody...and angry right now.  Just want people to quit pushing me to do anything.

Huggs & Purrs,

Julie

Julieann, Tara knows how much you loved her and you how much she loved you. You were two souls interwined and her spirit is with you always. Love this great cannot never be parted.. she is pain free now and so happy and only wants you to be happy now too.. Purrsssssssssssssss Pat and Miss Bluie

This is how I will remember Tara, full of life:



Hey, You woke me ups!

Caught on roommate's bed

Birthday Party

What wonderful pictures of your two beautiful girls! Tara's coloring is just exquisite!