Dear Andy,
 I am so sorry I was late seeing your post.   I remember so well when you got Sweet Pea and you joined the site. Your pride and love for Sweet Pea was from day one. We all knew because you asked all the questions to make her happy and comfortable.. and never forget how much you contribute to us also.. when she was kitty of week, we all fell in love with her..
  When you found her , she and you bonded eternally. You gave her what no one else had ever done, you gave her devoted and unquestionable love, you gave her comfort, love, attention, you showed her she was important to someone, you loved her even with all her problems and you made sure she got the best of medical care.. she knew this and return gave you unconditonal love.. she and you became soul mates... she would do anything for the one person who excepted her. and that was you.
  never feel guilty that some tech or vet was mean, there are still many vets and techs sadly that do not see cats as we do.. but every day more and more are joining the ranks.. you did the best you could , you got her help.. she knew this and she fought as long as she did to be with you, she knew how much you loved her. What a blessing , the time you had to share. Each of you taught each other the true meaning of love..
  Andy, even in the end when you say she fought til the last. this was for you, she knew how sick she was and she was ready to go to the bridge, but she sense your saddness and in her last moment of struggle it was a way of saying , I love you Andy, and she just wanted to give you a few more moments. to give you time for the loss . She loved you so much it was her way of saying good bye.. thank yo so much from my little kitty heart.. now I am crying..  
  Andy, she will always be with you, as Bear is with me. always.. listen for her, here her in the wind, an old Indian adage says when the wind blows the trees talk, and our love ones. too. feel her Andy, a slight breeze on your cheek, a nudge on the ankle, sense of someone close, watch for her in the sunlight, she will be playing with other kittys, chasing butterflys with my Bear , she is there with Sweet Pea now.. she will be by your side at night, you may even see her.. if you let yourself.. they come in our dreams.  One day you may smell that last wonderful tuna dinner you gave her and no tuna will be there, it will be her.. she is still yours , still with you ... so find peace and let the guilt go.. you have nothing to feel guilty about. The move did not cause her to be sicker, it was just time.. but you were with her every step of the way and may the Good Lord, allow more people like you to find these poor abused babies and give them the life they deserve like you did.. right now. Lillian, my friend in Belguim has a baby like your Sweet Pea, she is called Praline, she was abused and sad and sick but now has a forever home due to this kind lady.. sadly purrrrrrrrrrs and prayers.. Pat and Bear In Memory, Izzy Always an Angel and Bluie

What a gorgeous poem........ :flower:   It is so touching.  Thank you for sharing it.  :flower:  :paw:

Hello Andy, I just read your item this morning.(I have been kinda lazy, roaming "Persians")

We all know how it feels when one of our very beloved animals have to leave, but the human pain and human loss for a sweet animal is always there.

Sweet Pea was loved by you and she knew you were HER dad.  The human dad she could run to, to get hugs and pets and kisses and comfort, the human dad SHE trusted and loved.

Kind regards, Liliane, momzie  of Pattapouff, Nelson and Praline

Oh my gosh, I am SOO sorry to hear about your loss :-(
I almost felt tears...and I dont even know you or sweet pea, I did remember hearing bits about her though.
Just be thankful that her suffering is over, and knowing you did all you could to help her. Although she may have had a short life, I'm sure it was filled with lots of love!!!
Rest in peace sweet pea :heart:
Lots of love and hugs,
  britt & snowball

Andy - I've lost 19 people, plus 17 cats I cared for over the past 2 years.  Some days, the grief has been simply overwhelming for me.  Other days,
I feel as if they are helping me walk down the street, me too weak myself
to walk.  But I must go on, and learn to live and smile again - they'd all
want me to be happy and carefree again.

The reality is that we learn to accept that they are gone - but, the special
bone we've had, whether with people or with animals is very strong with
some of us.  That bond is what contributes sometimes to us replaying guilt,
etc., over choices with healthcare, for those we loved.  Hindsight is always
20/20, remember that.

The bond will always be rewarded, in the next life, I'm sure of it.  Love is
not something to be kept and held back - but something always to share,
to treasure.

This is what I've learned, since my father passed away in my very arms,
18 years ago.

Your heart is huge, don't be afraid to love another purrbaby.  May you
find the peace you need in your heart.

A part of Sweet Pea will always reside in your heart, just like a piece of
your heart resides in hers, with her always - never to forget you.

Purrs, Paw-paws & Huggs,

Julie